In search of hyacinth

A life spent

In search of hyacinth.

Little did I know,

It would bring such woe.

Growing

I know I have been stunted

Growing in this place

So far away from all that is bright

A darkness without light

A belt of wheat and God

Growing in this place

My life remained unclaimed

I only ever felt ashamed


written – July 15, 2018

That Phrase

I’ve always hated the phrase

Where do you see yourself

In a year, in five, in ten years?

To the people asking the question,

I don’t know is never acceptable.

The truth is never a correct response.

Because the truth is that

I cannot see myself today

Let alone tomorrow, or even a year from now.

To the people asking the question,

Only the appearance of an answer matters.

After the question is asked and answered,

They get to go on about their day, oblivious.

While I am still left with the question.


Written – 03/10/2017

I’ve had a guest in my house

I’ve had a guest in my house.

An unwanted visitor in my life.

One who’s overstayed his welcome.

In the morning, I wake up; he is there.

At night, I go to sleep; he is there.

Some days he’s even so bold,

He puts on my clothes, does the things I do.

He goes about my life pretending to be me.

A facsimile approximating what I want to be.

No matter how much I beg,

How much I scream and I cry.

He flat out refuses to leave.

All I want is to be finally free.


written – 03/09/2017

Quick!

Someone once said

Religion is the opium of the masses,

and maybe that was true

once upon a time

long before the vastly, interconnected world

we live in today. 

Before the widespread reveal of abuses,

both of money and innocence.

Today, the Church has lost its power.


We have a new opium,

a more refined drug

that doesn’t subdue us

with fear of action.

No.

This new drug,

this heroin of ours

That makes us two dollar

Hookers on the corner street

in order to get our fix

is more insidious

than the opium of the past.


In every home in the world,

from the billion-dollar McMansions

to the shacks in the ghetto,

everyone has access.

See the part where our old opium failed

is that it banked on us being too afraid

to do something

whereas our new heroin

gives us everything we ever wanted

lulling us into doing nothing.


In the brief moments of silence,

somewhere

in the back of our head

we realize this.

Our Response?

Quick!

Change the Channel.


Written – 10/30/2015

Updated – 3/28/2024

Palm trees swaying


Palm trees swaying

Bodies in the sand

Sweetness glistens

Running between fingers

Water slides away

From the edge

Always wounding

Deep within me

Craving more and more

Thoughts come and go


written – 1/15/2023

Someone once said


Someone once said that to hide part of yourself,

you also shut down All of yourself.

I never heard truer words spoken.

All the clichรฉd moments of epiphany

ever seen in movies made sense

as I experienced my own clichรฉ.


written – 05/03/2016

Lock yourself away


Lock yourself away in a room
For a day, a week, or even two.
Would you exit just the same you came,
Or find yourself someone new?


written – 7/28/2017